For God's Sake, I'm Sorry

Calc. quiz tomorrow and thus far the studying has been pretty scarce. I have managed to open my notes and spread them out, however. There's progress. What am I thinking? That is not by far all I have accomplish in the past hour. I have successfully finished a whole box of Nerds. Possibly not my best idea, but at least I've done something. Who ever said I was lazy. Well... I am... but that is besides the point.

Have you ever done something that someone else (or maybe even yourself) won't let you forget about? Not to say that forgetting about the stupid things you've done will make them go away, but it isn't fair to have it constantly shoved in your face. Yes, yes, sometimes it is in good fun. "Hey remember when you did this?!" Stupidity is terrific for a good laugh now and then. Actually, it is good for this all of the time. However, my point is, sometimes people (meaning me) don't want to think about the Really Actual stupid things All of the time. I don't need a constant reminder when I make a mistake. Also, it is for me to decide when/if it is a mistake. It's my life, remember? If I hurt you, offended you, disappointed you, or made you feel uncomfortable in any way... I'm sorry. How many times must I say it? I'm sorry. I promised you it would never happen again, and it didn't, even when it very easily could have. I value you as a friend, and you promised you would still be my "homie" after I left. But honestly, what kind of friendship is it when that seems to be all there is between us now? Please, let me move on. I don't want to think about that every time I see/talk to you. And I really don't want that to be all you think about when you see/talk to me. Can you really not get past that? Is it that you're just joking about it, or are you seriously upset? I am sorry, but I want to be able to talk to you without being sorry.