i have a dirty secret
that i've kept for years
it's brought me so much heartace
brought so many tears

i can't seem to find them
they seem so far away
the words to tell my secret
the words i cannot say

it lingers in the background
forever haunting me
its presence is exhausting
sometimes it's all i see

i've closed all the doors
and locked them pretty tight
now any chance of honesty
is hidden out of sight