anniversary

Twas one year ago that this blog entered the world. As with all other relationships, it has seen its ups and downs, its struggles and its triumphs. Originally, I had anticipated this place to be somewhere to vent and share things that I could share with no one else. It has evolved in a different manner, however, and I am unsure of how to characterize it.
It isn’t always easy to maintain a secret blog. Throughout the year, there has been many a moment when I wished that the secret would leak and friends and acquaintances would discover the glory that is found within. However, I have kept my cover to ensure my want to never feel the need to censor myself in any way. Nevertheless, I often wish that others would know about my blog.
This has partially to do with the desire for others to see part of me that I am too closed to share and partially to do with the disconcerting feeling that I am writing to no one, wasting my words. I realize that I created this place for myself and not others. However, it would be reassuring to know that somewhere there is someone hearing me and someone that finds my writing amusing. (not that I've written anything amusing in a while) It almost feels like putting my creativity into a Tupperware container and sealing it up. This seems unfortunate.